In My Dreams

SORRY FOR THE wrong GRAMMAR guys.LOL.feel free to make corrections.

Have you ever had dreams?

It’s a stupid question, isn’t it? Because of course, we do have dreams every night. Some we can recall. Some we can’t. It’s amazing how our brain can be so hardworking, functioning 24 hours when it should have been resting, too, during our sleep. Like me, I know you have also been dying to unveil the mystery behind dreams.

Like why do we have to dream?

Where do all those images, emotions, sensations come from?

Why do we feel like all those events seem real?

Is it possible our spirits would actually leave our bodies for a certain period of time and be back on the time set by our biological clock?

Is it possible that, while our physical bodies meet and interact with others during awake, our spirits would take over and do the same thing but during asleep?

In a much more direct question, do our spirits meet while our bodies are lying on bed, snoring and soundly asleep?

Or Are our subconscious thoughts messing up into our minds during our sleep?

These are just some questions that can certainly make our minds whirl. We, humans, are proven to be insatiable, always craving for knowledge butwith DREAM alone, it can definitely busy our minds with so much puzzles.

 So what then is a Dream?

Dream is scientifically elucidated. Based on the observations accumulated by some dedicated scientists, Dreams are strongly associated with Rapid Eye Movement (REM). The depth of its meaning, however, is unfathomable for ordinary people like us who are not acquainted with the complexity of the scientific world. Sometimes, the psychological and spiritual explanations are more graspable and more compelling than what science has to offer because of the mystery they implicate.

Personally, I would say dreaming at night is just the same with daydreaming. The only difference is the “directors” assigned in those dreams. We can be the directors of our reveries or daydreams but we can’t in our night dreams because night-dreams are uncontrollable.

So why the blah-blah of dreams?

Now, let me tell you something about my dreams some few nights ago. You may be wondering why I have included this in my diary. Firstly, it is my first time experience to have dreamed of someone successively. It is not a recurring dream in terms of events. Rather, it is a recurring dream in terms of who I am with. Secondly, those dreams have stories and meanings to tell. They seem to go with the flow because I find them coincidental with reality. Lastly, those dreams are the only ones I can remember among the series, the most vivid ones. Thanks to my hippocampus!

Now, let’s go inside my mind and rewind those intriguing dreams…

1^st Dream (July 7, 2011). “I was sitting on my bed, busy chatting via facebook with him. It was kinda weird because I could see him. I could see his reactions, making me conclude that the uneasiness between us was starting to fade. I could even feel it while dreaming.

It was a brief conversation. We started from “Musta?” to replying “I’m okay.” Then I asked him (translated),

“When will be your flight?”

Just when he was about to reply, I woke up.

2^nd Dream (July 8, 2011). The scene was all so sudden like it came from out of nowhere. I saw him talking to his mother on the phone, desperately begging her to find him another (something like) employment. He was almost on the brink of crying. What was strange again was I saw them talking despite their distance. Then I realized they could not see me. It was like watching a conversation between a mother and son in a movie or some tv shows. I was not able to find out what her mother could have said to pacify him because I suddenly woke up.

3^rd Dream (July 9, 2011). The setting was in the office, particularly at the dirty kitchen. I was standing while he was sitting on a small bench. It was like he was preparing something, a food perhaps? This dream was a bit hazy. I can only remember a few like I was not the viewer anymore. I was part of the scene. I saw him and he saw me. Then poof! Two of our officemates came into the scene like some fairies or people with magic suddenly appearing. Strange, eh? Then I woke up.

4^th Dream (July 11, 2011). Recalling the events of this dream, only two faces keep flashing back, his and my first love’s. Period. This was the most indistinct dream among the series.

5^th Dream (July 12, 2011). The second vaguest dream. I saw his lovely partner in the scene. I didn’t see him but I could feel his presence. This dream let me focused more on the feeling of realization dawning upon me. From that instant while looking at his partner, I realized he could never be mine. Somebody had already owned him and that somebody was that lovely woman. It was vague but it felt like real.

6^th Dream (July 13, 2011). I and my officemates were in our office mess hall when all of a sudden (again), somebody wailed like a child. It was him! Had he not cried so loud, I wouldn’t know he was there! I was really suppressing a laugh because I found the expression on his face a bit comical. Haha! The twist of the story was when, out of nowhere, his mother and his little girl appeared. He then hugged the girl saying he would definitely miss her. That was it, then I woke up.

Six dreams! Three times in a row, a 1-day interval and then another 3 consecutive nights, in particular.  I could have disregarded the why’s that have been bombarding my mind but I simply couldn’t. Curiosity keeps knocking on the door. So I said to myself, “Maybe, opening the door for interpretation is not a bad idea. Why not give it a try?” So here’s my interpretations.

Perhaps the first dream is just a reflection of my desire to chat with him before his leaving from the country and even at present. But because of some factors affecting our platonic relationship, I am restraining myself from getting in touch with him. The desire did come into realization, not in reality, but in my night-dream.

BUT just to give you an afterthought, here’s the trivia for the first dream. It did happen in reality on that very day (July 7, 2011). Only that, it was not me he was chatting with, an officemate. My officemate told me they did. She did not tell me the whole story but part of it was asking him about the schedule of his flight which he answered with “Thursday.” Was it pure coincidence? Or was it coming into real life?

The second dream is perhaps my wish to turn the events my way. Maybe, I want him to stay so I get to see him everyday. But this can also be interpreted via another perspective. Perhaps, too, there was a bit of apprehension on his part (before he went abroad). He was torn between his family and dreams. Maybe something was pulling him to stay but mostly, it was pushing him to pursue his dreams for his family.

The third dream can also be interpreted in two sides, mine and his. Perhaps, the dream is about missing him and I admit I DO. I miss his presence in the office and maybe he, too, does miss, NOT ME of course, but the entire gang in the office.

Thinking of it now, I cannot really remember the sequence of events of the fourth dream. I can only remember the faces. It was him and my first love. Could it be because the intensity of what I have felt for him is the same as what I felt for my past love? Maybe, so.

The fifth dream is sort of the slapping truth. There is a BACK-OFF message telling me to stop this madness. It’s simple. He can never love me back because his heart already belongs to someone. On the other hand, let me see the scene in a different angle. Perhaps, too, the message relayed is to let me realize there are so much complications entailed if we happened to take risk and take that “game” (Part I: Pouring Out )seriously.

The last dream is plain and simple. He misses his family but most especially his little girl. The twist of the story? July 13, 2011 happened to be the day of his flight.

Are these dreams connected to reality?

Are these dreams, in a way, a medium of sending me some messages like message of realization and even of what and how he felt during those times before he left?

Or these are all just my subconscious thoughts because he has affected me  so deeply?

Solving the puzzles of dreams is too complicated. There are many opinions, explanations, theories, studies attached to that subject. Hence, my interpretations are moot.

But be it supported with spiritual, scientific or psychological findings, one thing is certain.

No one can ever decipher the code of DREAMS… except God.

Am I right?

Till next boring session guys! My post is quite long. Haha! Till then. I’ll bore you with my thoughts next reading session! Thanks for droppin’ by.

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