The Trying Hard Writer

TO BE EDITED TONIGHT! I AM IN A HURRY!

07.05.11. The morning chill was starting to penetrate into my tiny body, slowly awakening me from a confusing sequence of dreams.  I pulled my blanket  up for insulation and curled up snugly like a fetus in a womb. I was half-asleep, half-awake but the fact that it was Tuesday, getting out of bed was obligatory. Whether I liked it or not, I had to.

Unfortunately, procrastination has already been part of my boring life, clinging unto me like a leech!

So instead of making my way down and started preparing for work, I searched for my mobile phone to check the time, silently hoping it was still too early for the rush. It was more or less 15 minutes past 6 in the morning, it said. I then glanced at my bedside digital clock for verification. It showed a minute delayed than my phone’s. Thinking I still had time to spare to indulge myself into another snooze, I thought to myself, “Perhaps, stealing a few minutes is not that bad enough.” So, I just ignored the obvious message transmitted by the clocks and dozed off for a couple of minutes.

Zzzzzzzz…. Hmp! I don’t snore!

Minutes later, I forced my heavily shut eyes to open only to find out it was almost 7 in the morning! The sun was already up at its 7am position but since my room was covered with a checkered drape mostly of dark to a few light brown hues in contrast to the refreshing I-don’t-know-what-that-color-is-painted wall, my eyes did not squint a single bit. Mr. Sun was not given the chance to infiltrate into that thick fiber of the fabric.

Nonetheless, I let out a grunt. As tempting as it was, I dragged myself out of bed, cleaned up my mess and grabbed a towel and a pair of undies before heading downstairs for a quick pour (We don’t have a shower! We’re poor, you know.). So, splaaaaassssssshhhhh! Then I was done.

I knew I would be late for the nth time today. So I decided to rush outside for a short walk going to the office after donning my daily informal wear, jeans and Tee, but wearing my dingy worn-out yet comfy faded yellow Slazenger canvas with pink shoelace. I wore a pair of girly yet sophisticated flats yesterday. So I opted for a rugged pair today.

Uhm, let me wander off the main topic first. I love shoes! And I love wearing them one each day! I prefer old shoes though because I can’t afford new ones. I also love chic sandals!

Okay, so there, enough of those small details…

I went to the office with an empty stomach. I did it on purpose. One, the office is just a walking distance so it would not be a hassle going back for breakfast. Two, I did not want to hear that recorded voice of a woman saying “Thank you!” even if I timed-in, using my index print, minutes after 8:00! She should have been telling me, “You’re late again and again!” She’s not being honest to herself! Hahah!

With that being confessed, I know what’s playing on your mind right now. Yeah! I knew it was simple cheating but I promise it’s not gonna happen again. Period.I won’t be giving you any further explanation regarding that matter. My lips are tightly sealed! Zipppeeeeeddddd!!!!!Don’t mind fretting over it!

Anyway, my story does not end here, of course! My mouth can never recognize a “shut up” signboard in some other matters when I’m blogging. So I’m gonna continue blabbering here and if you happen to read this blog, please do bear with me. I can be a boring storyteller, exhausting you with so much dangling words. Well, that’s just simply my style of writing. Okay, so much for the meanders again…  

I was glad I was not late today. I arrived at the log-station at 7:52AM. I then retraced my way back, dropping by the office for a matter of seconds, and then went out heading home to eat an early meal. With only less to masticate because I scooped only a cup of rice, I was done eating a couple of minutes after.

For your information, I do not eat much during breakfast. I am not much an early eater. Blame it to my hyperacidity! I have always had this morning churn inside my stomach whenever I smell oily and sometimes sour foods during early hours of the day and if things get worse, vomiting is the next scene!

I do love mornings but my stomach doesn’t. This may be the simplest reason why I am skinny, not to mention I have this incredible rapid metabolism! Sometimes, I do wonder how my tummy can be so overworking in a lot of times. I eat as many as healthy people can. I usually eat a lot during lunches and dinners but I can’t gain fats! Hmp! If I were to give an award to my digestive system, I would be handing that award over to my stomach and small intestines the soonest possible time for being the most hyperactive duo when it comes to liquefying and further digestion of foods!

Okay, so much for the rant of not gaining even just a few fats…

I went back to the office afterwards doing NOTHING. Uhmm… I did read an Agricultural Engineering Board Review material but that was just it for the entire day. Uhmm…I did work on some printouts but I stopped and went back reading, absentmindedly burying my face into that first topic I chose, the Engineering Shop subject. I answered its by-level exercises and then checked my answers via Answer Key. I found out I made an averagely impressive performance on the Easy Level by scoring 14/20, but dramatically dropped to 7/20 on its Moderate Level and managed to get a break-even score on the Difficult Level, 5/10. Hmmff! You couldn’t blame me! The book required me to answer some questions with answers nowhere to be found in those articles, or what do you call that! I was only depending on those articles because, at that moment, I had no other sources besides that material.

Furthermore, I am still on the stage of scraping the layers of rust off my head thickened for 4 years of staying idle!I did not take up the AE Board Exam right after I graduated last 2007 from a particular university and I still haven’t since then. I did not even exert an effort to stress my brain out even by just undergoing myself through a self-review.

Therefore, my mind is kinda adjusting to those bolts, nuts, screw, rivets, softwood, hardwood, power tools, power machines, types of saw, power shears, nails, computation for board foot and other terminologies! Not to mention, Engineering Shop is only a minor subject and there’s still a lot more to busy my deteriorating brain in the coming days! Ugh! Just reading a few pages of it, even without seriously reading it, totally drained my cerebrum!

Nevertheless, it was better that way than doing totally nothing. It has been several weeks since I felt I did sweat my ass off doing a real job. I am not enjoying the ambiance of our office now. Nepotism hangs in the air and its venom is starting to poison me. It is slowly eating me.I have been trying to disregard this bad vibe but I can’t most of the time. It’s got me secluding myself from my co-workers, as if I have my own world and it does not revolve around them. Anyway, I won’t be pouring out the entire story of that dilemma today. Be posting it one of these days.

Going back to my daily routine, I ended my working day flipping through the pages of that reviewer, a few chats with officemates and then jotting down my memories of the past day.

At home, I went upstairs and waited for dinner by re-reading The Godfather. Unfortunately, I dozed off but was still able to eat dinner with my family. Sleep was then elusive for a couple of hours. So I stayed at the living room watching etc shows. One thing that got me interested was the Bachelor Pad, quite interesting!

Yeah, they are all handsome men and beautiful women but it is their culture that  had got me hooked. They are quite open-minded. I want to elaborate this topic further but I’m afraid this post is too long for a post , my head is starting to ache and my eyes are beginning to

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Till next time readers and bloggers! 

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